Mother's Day is fast approaching. When my son Dustin was killed in 2005 I remember the next morning looking into a mirror and asking myself, "Who am I now? For 17 years I have been a Mom and in an instant that is all gone."
It took me a while to realize I was still a Mom but on Mother's Day I go visit my child at the cemetery not their home. I will take a lawn chair and set it up there by his side and talk to him for a while. Play some of his favorites songs while there and leave. It is so tough.
Meanwhile I am so blessed to have my Mom living with us. Well I say blessed but not that I wanted Daddy to die but when he did she was afraid to live in the country by herself. As Daddy was dying I told him it was okay to let go that I would take care of Mom as he had done for 64 years.
Having my best friend, Mom here is an experience I didn't appreciate growing up when she was MOM and laying down the rules which now I am so glad she did.
Please remember that just because my Dustin is gone that I am still a Mom. Feel free to wish me Happy Mother's Day because being his Mom was the greatest joy ever.
Beautiful! Happy Mother's Day! Enjoy having your mother with you! And yes, we must keep in touch!(The Grief Chronicles!) New fan and follower!-Ginger
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you. I am so happy that you have your mother. My aunt is going to have her first Mother's Day since my cousin suddenly passed, and I am going to share this with her. Hugs.
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