Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Mother's Day When Your Child Has Passed

Holidays used to be such a joyous time.  Now each one brings on memories that were so wonderful yet sad.

Mother's Day is fast approaching.  When my son Dustin was killed in 2005 I remember the next morning looking into a mirror and asking myself, "Who am I now?  For 17 years I have been a Mom and in an instant that is all gone."

It took me a while to realize I was still a Mom but on Mother's Day I go visit my child at the cemetery not their home.  I will take a lawn chair and set it up there by his side and talk to him for a while.  Play some of his favorites songs while there and leave.  It is so tough.

Meanwhile I am so blessed to have my Mom living with us.  Well I say blessed but not that I wanted Daddy to die but when he did she was afraid to live in the country by herself.  As Daddy was dying I told him it was okay to let go that I would take care of Mom as he had done for 64 years.

Having my best friend, Mom here is an experience I didn't appreciate growing up when she was MOM  and laying down the rules which now I am so glad she did.

Please remember that just because my Dustin is gone that I am still a Mom.  Feel free to wish me Happy Mother's Day because being his Mom was the greatest joy ever.  


  1. I have nominated you for the Liebster Award! You can go to my page here, http://darlenebnemeth.blogspot.ca/2013/04/liebster-award.html, to get more info. Congrats!

  2. Beautiful! Happy Mother's Day! Enjoy having your mother with you! And yes, we must keep in touch!(The Grief Chronicles!) New fan and follower!-Ginger

  3. My heart breaks for you. I am so happy that you have your mother. My aunt is going to have her first Mother's Day since my cousin suddenly passed, and I am going to share this with her. Hugs.